actually im tired and wanted to sleep but hell no, something happened that kept me wide awake. its about her
well as a matter of fact, we had a fight, not excactly a fight, a small misunderstanding .... misunderstanding, i dont think it is . tsk . OTP with her, and i told her i was getting tired and sleepy, so yeah she agreed to end the call. i asked her wether she was angry at me or not, and she seem to be grumpy with her words . as in, i asked her nicely and she gave me a reply with a total opposite tone from what i gave her . then i consoled her as usual , but all of a suddent she replied with the " kimak " word . i was like WTF ?!?! this is what you call love ? hello ? are you out of you mind or what ? damn, was so shocked , my heart was suffering such a severe pain, i swear it hurts ! oh well, she doesnt seem to care bout my heart's condition. well . heres the thing, she told me i forgot my promises, HAHAHA ! i didnt, she did, and yeah, she got all stingy bout the number of msgs she used and was all stressed out bout her bill, i understand . i mean like cmon, if you know u can't handle having a line, use prepaid instead . serious !
here is what she msged me excactly :
" kimakk . bwat perangai ngan i ? hung up on me ? da lah u , tmr tkya jumpe sudah . nyt . ly . k ,bye "
it hurts , seriously, and yeah the hung up thing , she was all grumpy and angry, and she claims that when im consoling her, it hurts her, so why i should continue, i hung up instead . and dont think after reading this , you would probably say i gave up on her, no, i have always been the one calling her back even she hung up on me, even when shes angry, even when shes sad, coz i know she needs me . but have she ever did that to me ? a definite - NO ! And also, between us, we made it clear that when we use shortforms like ily, ly, imy, its seriously unsincere .
this is what i replied her, and yeah for those who knows me, please tell me my mistake about it :
" u maki me, u used all those harsh tones and words on mwe . thats how u reply my msg yang diberi dngn kate2 baik ? i pakse u berubah, yes i did, but to let you become a better person, not like this. and yeah, semenjak u pakai line, nak msg i pun susah, berkira sangat ngan i, i selalu kol u pon takde per i ckp ape ape . we are like talking things out and ur like ah kay kay u menang, wtf ? ego nah. mentang2 i baik, i relaxed, u pijak kepale ah ? eh, kalau i dah tak syg, dah tak kisah, i dah tinggalkan lah tapi syg nyer pasal, i sabar ! tsk, i rase, lelaki lain pun tak tahan ngan perangai u mcm gini, dah bagos tu dapat i, sabar, understanding. this is how u repay me ? nak reply tak yah nak ckp ur hurting me or dnt contact me or u tak syg i, u started this thing kay ! i ckp baik2, u reply i kimak ? eh, kalau ngantok, moody pun, nak maki tngk org ah, maki matair sendiri, siape ajar ? dah lah eh u, i dah cukup sabar ngan u. kalau masih syg, kol ah eh, kalau tak, tak yah nak contact. love you tiger . nites ! "
like seriously, before we were even together, she keeps mentioning bout me becoming the old me, so yeah i took the effort and i changed myself, she told me i changed and she appreciated it but why must one be better and the other becoming worse, love is so unfair . if i were to follow my old behaviour, i would have already left her, and started finding a new one, but why didnt i do that ? coz i LOVE her thats why !!! seriously guys, do you think im being too patient , as in, im fine being too patient with her as long as it keeps us together . haiyo, in alot of relationships ive been through, this is the toughest and that is the reason that made me LOVE her even more !! and do out think other guys would even be this tolerant towards her ? like she getting all angry and mooody and keeps throwing tantrums at you out of the blue. cmon, thats what i get from her ! haiz, i really dont know whats going on, coz i remember her telling me that when it gets late at night, her mood gets bad, but her promise to me was not to let her mood come into our way, i nvr did that, like seriously, i SWEAR ! haiz, i think ive written enough, she would be probably scold me for posting this out. the reason why i did this is not to tell the whole world her mistake, coz maybe its my fault too, it takes two hands to clap :) but people reading this post, i really need your wise guidance in this matter. thats all i have to say, not sleepy, just heartbroke :(
nytz2 people and thanks for spending your time to read :)
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Megat Muhammad Danial
